andrew j pulido

A Friendly Lie?

2011-06-11T01:27:00.003-04:00

This has happened to me on more than one occasion and I would like to know if I am alone in this.......

I went on a couple dates with a guy a while back and things seemed great! We had a lot of fun and kept in touch for a while after. He would tell me he planned on hanging out again sometime soon but he was busy. I totally get it. I understand busy. What I don't understand is when a guy will be "busy" all the time and not have time for dating but yet in 2 weeks/a month his facebook status changes to "in a relationship".....and I know it sure as hell isn't in a relationship with me!

That was not the first time it had happened to me. Someone says they are "busy", "they aren't looking for a relationship", "they just want to enjoy their life and not be tied down". Yet in no time at all....BAM! They are dating someone.

Is it my fault? Obviously I am not a good catch. I've come to accept this fact but has the gay community lost their "balls". What happened to telling a person you weren't interested in them? What happened to straight up telling someone to stop talking to you? It's not because people are too nice! No.

"Oh they are just being nice and don't want to hurt your feelings so instead of telling you they met someone else they just told you they were busy."

I think that being lied to and led on and being given a little bit of a "chance" is worse than simply being told "I DON'T LIKE YOU"!

Now maybe because I'm lame and will be single for the rest of my life, I am the only one that has had this happen to them. Or maybe this is something that people like to do! I'm not sure.

I think people need to man up and speak the truth. What you think may be protecting someone can really be hurting them even more in the long run.

Someone Like You

2011-02-02T00:33:00.001-05:00

yes please!

2010-12-19T21:05:00.003-05:00

Misfits

2010-12-17T14:46:00.001-05:00

It's Christmas break! which means i have some time on my hands before the next semester of shit school starts. ALSO it means that i can posts blogs about stuff like this......

MISFITS!! i'm totally obsessed and you should be too! all i'm going to do is post part 1 of the first episode and i'll let you get addicted.....

oh....and you're welcome ;)

Harry Potter Thrift Store

2010-10-12T14:16:00.004-04:00

i have only been thrift store shopping a couple times in my life but i was bored the other day and was like...."what the heck? i'll see what i can find."

and boy am i glad i did!

[backstory]
ok so i think i have talked about this before but i started reading the harry potter books forever ago...like years ago. i went on a trip and made sure that i had the 3rd one with me so that i could read it cause i was totally into the books! so here we are....driving along on our trip and things start to not make sense in the book. IT WAS MISPRINTED!!! pages are missing and whole chapters repeat. i was so pissed that i stopped reading them and haven't read them since

[point of the backstory]
BUT when i went to the thrift store they had all the books for 2.99 each so you KNOW that my ass bought them all and i'm gonna start reading them again!

my goal is to read them all before the last movie comes out. part 1 of the last movie. :) it can be done right?!

i was reading the books that True Blood is based on but they are kinda boring...i mean they are entertaining but i feel like the show is word for word in some cases so i'm bored reading them.

have you read the harry potter books?
which one is your favorite?
how many times have you read the series?

Romero's Zombies!

2010-10-11T14:52:00.012-04:00

so i started off Andy's October Horror Movie Marathon with George A Romero zombie movies [or remakes of his old ones].

ps. i never said i was a movie critic. this is just my one paragraph opinion on some movies :)

Dawn of the Dead [2004]
Written by: George A. Romero / James Gunn
Directed by: Zack Snyder

Everyone always thinks that it would be cool to be stranded in a mall! Right?! Well not if you are trapped there because the rest of the world is taken over by zombies! The zombies in this movie are fast and chase your ass down! I'm not always a fan of the movies where the zombies stumble along but yet always seem to catch up to you. In this movie the zombies are fast and brutal. There is a lot of blood but not so much the body parts and insides flying around like in most movies. this is one of my favorites.

Land of the Dead [2005]

Written by: George A. Romero
Directed by: George A. Romero

Zombies have taken over and humans have built a walled city to live in. Groups of humans leave the city every now and then to find food and booze and things and on one trip they find out that the zombies are "evolving". They are learning to communicate and fight back and now they are after the city. This movie is good except it's one where the zombies are all slow and stumble around but i like that they use weapons and things instead of just eating people. There is a lot of blood and a lot of gore. There is one effed up part where there is a shadow of a human hand reaching up and two zombies grab fingers are rip the hand in half and split the arm...kinda like the wishbone in a turkey! Not the best zombie movie...but it's entertaining.

Day of the Dead [2008]
Written by: George A. Romero / Jeffrey Reddick
Directed by: Steve Miner

I really don't understand what happened in this movie cause it was kinda boring but it was something like military testing caused zombies and now some chick in the military helps her brother and his girlfriend survive and kill the zombies. The zombies in this movie are fast and so i did like that fact! The gore level is pretty up there and bodies get ripped up and stuff. Overall i would say this movie is basically just entertaining. Nothing special. After all.....it has Nick Cannon in it. Need i say more?

Survival of the Dead [2009]
Written by: George A. Romero
Directed by: George A. Romero

A group of people seek refuge on an island where they hear there are no zombies. However they learn that a man on the island is trying to train the zombies into eating things other than humans! He has one of them locked up and tries to make it eat a pig and make one girl eat a horse and so on and so on but in the mean time the zombies are after the humans! Ripping them apart and eating them all up! ha. This movie is pretty gory. Like...rip a body in half and pull out the guts! In the end...well, i'm not gonna tell you how it ends...but it's good. Check it out! :)

And just for fun...

Zombies of Mass Destruction [2009]
Written by: Kevin Hamedani
Directed by: Kevin Hamedani / Ramon Isa

Such a funny movie!!! It's a "political zomedy" that pokes fun at america with things like a gay couple that comes to a small town and the church tries to convert them and a girl that's father is middle eastern so everyone thinks she is a terrorist. All this going on while zombies run around outside! The gay couple is SO funny and i really liked this movie.

"Don't shoot! I'm gay!"

The Andrew J Pulido Winter Scarf Collection

2010-09-14T01:29:00.003-04:00

so if you follow me on twitter or are a friend on facebook then you already know that i have started knitting! i was bored one day and i have a friend that knits and i was like...

"what are you doing?"

and he was like...

"knitting."

so i went to the art store and bought yarn and needles and watched youtube videos on how to knit! i'm totally a pro now. SEE! LOOK!

BUT!! the point of this blog is this...

it's funny how people play into the things you are doing with your life.

for instance i had JUST enrolled in cosmetology and been in school for about a week when people at work started to say stuff like...

"can you come over and cut my hair!" and "omg you should totally color my hair!"

first of all.....i had JUST started school. i hadn't even picked up a comb, let alone learned about colors and developers and all that shit! just because i'm in school doesn't mean i'm freaking Paul Mitchell.

also when i tell someone i'm going to school for cosmetology they will say things like "oh my aunt owns a salon! you should totally work for her!" one time this lady that i was serving at the bar told me she owned a salon and that i should come work for her. i could be the worst cosmetologist EVER but yet she gave me a card and her number and everything. who said i wanted to work for anyone anyways?! maybe i wanna start my own place and run you bitches outta business! [i dont...but just sayin]

ok so back to the scarves......i told people that i learned how to knit and now i guess i'm taking special orders.

"oh you should make me a scarf?!"
"oh you should make me a hat!"
"wanna make me a sweater?!"
"do you think you can knit me something for my aunt's friend's baby?"

ugh......lord

do you know what i mean?

yes i know how to knit. no i'm not making scarves for everyone in my contact list. by the time i'm done knitting a whole scarf i just wanna wear it for like a day and a half.

i guess i'll just start charging ;)

i feel like that was a long way of saying i'm annoyed.

The End. :)

why are you mad?!

2009-07-29T23:49:00.000-04:00

last night at work i was in the office with one of the newer girls and she said....

"andy, why do i feel like you don't like me"

i was like

"what? i like you!"

and she replied...

"well i always feel like you are mad or upset about something and glare at everyone."

now this isn't the first time that this has happened. when i was working at the salon one of the girls there said:

"when i first met you i thought you were stuck up and rude"

and one time i went to a party and this girl that i had NEVER met said:

"you are stuck up aren't you. you think you are better than everyone else. i can tell"

now really?! when i tell people these stories they often tell me that ,they too, thought i was stuck up and mean when they first met me, but now that they know me think otherwise.

i like to think that i am a very nice, outgoing, friendly person! i think that is one of my good qualities! i understand at work how people can think i am mean though because i get so frustrated with tables and other employees, but unlike most people who get bitchy and yell at each other, i just get quiet and get in a "zone" where i dont' want to talk to people i just wanna get my stuff done.

for those of you who know me, tell me, do you think [or did you ever think] that i am stuck-up and rude and mean?!

tell me why! so i can fix it and people will think i'm nice :)

cause i am

i promise

The OBX

2009-07-18T11:13:00.004-04:00

my sister leaves for the Naval Academy on tuesday. it's kinda a big deal that she is going. out of the 15 thousand applications they get a year only 1,200 get accepted. ever since she got early acceptance it's been crazy for her but she is totally excited and we are all excited for her.

ANYWAYS!

since she is going to be gone, my grandparents from nevada flew over to visit for the week. when family members or friends from out of town come to visit we get to do things that we normally wouldn't think to go do. [not to mention we eat SO much seafood] there is so much in this area that, since living here our whole lives, we dont' really plan on doing for fun.

on thursday we drove along the coast to go to the wright brothers museum and to do some shopping and look at the lighthouses they have out there. [also we went to rodanthe. you know, like the movie: nights in rodanthe] it's called the "outerbanks", which we have like 10 minutes from our house, but they extend all along the coast and we normally just stick to the more local ones.

so yeah. basically.....it was a good time!

KA-BOOM!

2009-07-04T01:26:00.001-04:00

it's the 4th of july!

yay?

so yesterday was one of the best days i've had in a long time. well not yesterday, it was thursday night. im still awake s'o it was yesterday for me. :)

i woke up at a decent time and then did nothing. later on i went to patty's house and then we went to the beach for a little while. good time. then we went to the store and got salad and chicken and other yummie things [we saw tj there and she better call me to go to the beach!]. we ate at my house and then set up a movie outside. we have a projector that we hook up to a laptop and shine the projector on the shed so it's like a drive-in movie in our back yard! except we sit in the pool and watch movies! ha.

we watched "the uninvited", which was decent. i've seen better. but that got over around midnight i wanna say and then patty left and then my friend came over and we swam in the pool til around one thirty-ish. it started to get chilly so we went to mcdonalds then went to the beach. the beach was so cool. there was a storm over the ocean so we sat in the dunes and watched the lightning out over the water. SO cool. then we just stayed there and talked until it started to get bright cause the sun was coming up! so we had to leave.

it was just such a fun day. like i got to hang out with cool people and do cool things and just relax and be chill and let my guard down. not that i constantly have my guard up and am never around cool people, but sometimes it's nice to just not give a crap. ya know?!

but then i only got a couple hours of sleep and had to work. womp-womp

my mom and sister leave for their cruise in like 6 hours. JEALOUS!

ew. womanizer just came on shuffle. so over it.

April Kelly

2009-04-18T03:15:00.001-04:00

SO AMAZING!!

25 Most Played

2009-04-14T03:41:00.005-04:00

[ ^ click on it to see it better! duh! ^ ]

First off let me say that i have not really listened to "Edward at Her Bed" from the Twilight Soundtrack 182 times. i had it on repeat for like 5 minutes cause i liked it so much and then fell asleep. when i woke up it was at 182! ugh.

what is your top 25?!

Gossip Girl

2009-04-01T23:33:00.012-04:00

can we just talk about how OBSESSED with Gossip Girl i am right now? my sisters bought me season 1 for my birthday and since then i have been addicted. not only am i super into it, my whole family is. i was watching one of the episodes the other day and my dad walks into the room and goes "oh is this the one where blair sleeps with nate?" and i was like "dad?! what are you talking about?" and he was like "this show is pretty good! it's addicting." he keeps trying to pursued me that chuck is a good person. lol. i don't buy it. apparently he has been watching the season with my sisters. ha.

ever since Gossip Girl premiered i've wanted to watch it but we never had the channel it came on. whenever the guys from the show were on the cover of OUT magazine i was like i HAVE to see this show and now i'm hooked. there's drama and cute boys and pretty girls and amazing clothes. love it!! i'm actually on the last disc of season one and dont' want to wait for season two to come out on dvd so i'm totally just going to buy the episodes on itunes. hooray! can't wait :)

i really have been hoping that there is going to be a gay character so i googled it, and found out all about it. kinda disappointed, not gonna lie. they should have picked someone else to be gay! haha. but there will be more episodes! so hopefully they will introduce a hotter one. i'll audition if it means i can make out with penn badgley. yum. :)

**UPDATE [w/spoilers for people who haven't seen season 1]: i stayed up til 5am last night watching this freaking show! the episode where eric was outed made me cry like twice. his lil conversation with his mom and serena was really good! also when serena came to blaire all freaked out about georgina and told her she killed someone i almost flipped the eff out!! so crazy. from there to the finale [which i think was like 3 episodes] was SOOOOO good! i'm really upset at how the relationships all ended up. well not all of them. i am anti serena and nate. pro chuck and blair and anti dan being with anyone else but serena. ha. i have no idea who is with who in season two but i intend to find out. ;)

Jim Verraros

2009-03-27T00:34:00.004-04:00

i was going through my friends on myspace and didn't realize i had Jim Verraros as one. do you remember him? that "goofy/nerdy" looking guy from American Idol season 1. here is a refresher:well it just so happens that after American Idol he came out and has been in a couple movies and released an album. his movies are pretty good and so is his album. check em out. BUT ANYWAYS! the reason i am writing this blog is b/c i was looking at the pics on his myspace and was like "dayum!" he got hot!
the end.......ha.
check out his MYSPACE for music and more pics.

Fishing Story

2009-03-05T21:07:00.007-05:00

two guys were fishing off the coast of calfornia when they saw something swimming in the water.so they move over closer to it and find out it was a......deer!

because of the forest fires in cali the poor deer had been swimming in the ocean for a while and was so tired that when the men tried to save the deer it willingly let them.

i just thought that was a crazy story and wanted to share. :)

Buffy

2009-03-02T00:17:00.003-05:00

i got home from work on saturday and there was a package sitting on the kitchen table from tom! i opened it up and guess what was inside. Buffy Season 1! I've never seen it before. like ever. i don't think i have sat down and watched a full episode in my life but i've always been told i would probably like it. I'm super pumped that tom sent it though. it was part of his bday present to me! [since he's gonna be in europe on my bday]

i'm currently working my way through season one and liking it a lot. i should be sleeping, but i'm hooked!

it's all your fault

2008-12-12T16:43:00.002-05:00

I conjure up the thought of being gone
But I'd probably even do that wrong
I try to think about which way
Would I be able to and would I be afraid

Cause oh I'm bleeding out inside
Oh I don't even mind

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

I'm trying to figure out what else to say
To make you turn around and come back this way
I feel like we could be really awesome together
So make up your mind cause it's now or never

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

I would never pull the trigger
But I've cried wolf a thousand times
I wish you could
Feel as bad as I do
I have lost my mind

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

a lil sumthin sumthin fer ya!

2008-12-03T00:53:00.003-05:00

i'm so lazy!

i don't start work until thursday night so what have i been doing? NOTHING!

well, i mean, i've been doing stuff. playing animal crossing [freaking addicted]. i love the online part of it b/c tom comes to my town and i go to his and we have cute umbrella parties. i've also gone to ross's town and yeison's. it's so crazy how detailed this game is. like meeting people in other towns and different towns having different things so you like HAVE to meet new people to get stuff. it's taking over my life!

i got my hair cut, made some videos, hanging out with friends.

i'm glad that people who weren't 21 when i lived here before are 21 now. WOO! i don't need to explain the reasoning behind that do i?

i'm going to work at Outback again. pam and patty and mark still work there. so i'm totally pumped. ALSO! i think i'm going to work at applebees during the day. cause outback is only open for dinner. so two restaraunt jobs. i can do that right? i think i can. and i'd totally bank by doing it! which is kinda the whole purpose.

REAL WORLD!!!! AHH!! so i had my phone interview and now i'm just waiting for them to update the site to show the final 10. seriously. i'm trying to not get too excited/anxious about it b/c i've auditioned for shows before, and well, you know how those all went. ha. but if i click on the link the my face pops up i'm gonna flip the freak out. and then make ya'll vote for me :)

i was talking to my fam the other day over dinner and kinda think i wanna go medical...like for a career. male nurse? that's hot right? :) the college here has a really good program for stuff like that and the hospital is right across the street from the college so the training is totally perfect. the only thing is that my dad teaches a spanish class for doctors and they tell him stories and some of the stuff grosses him out. i was trying to think of all these gross situations in my head and trying to gross myself out. didn't happen. but that's just mental. what if guts and stuff are right in front of me. we'll see! maybe....plus i just wanna be a nurse. no brain surgery or stuff.

so yeah! that's kinda what's been going on..........

EXCITING!

NC

2008-11-26T12:48:00.003-05:00

after 976 miles and 17 hours in the car [according to google maps] i have arrived in nc! it's so warm here i don't even need to wear a hoodie! i love it.

the trip was long and my butt still hurts from sitting so long. i started monday at like 330ish and drove to columbus ohio to stay the night there with a friend then the next morning woke up early and drove all day. it was super boring but i had good music and of course there was lots to look at.

like in west virginia....it was a two lane road with no passing zones the whole freaking time and OF COURSE there was a slow semi in front of me. there were signs everywhere for "tractor xing" and there were SO MANY cows everywhere! it smelled like poop. and for some reason people in west virginia like to collect tires. and stack them up places like their driveway, on their roofs, in the ditch. i don't understand.

but apart from freaky west virginia, the rest of the trip wasn't too bad. i only hit a little bit of snow in virginia but it wasn't bad at all. the mountains were SO pretty though. it was so cool to drive along and just look to you left and right and see for miles. so cool. i wanted there to be those little things where you can pull over and take pics. scenic stop things. ya know? but there weren't. lame

but yeah! i'm home. in nc. gettin ready for thanksgiving. but right now....i think i wanna go to the beach :)

Celebrity Look-a-likes?

2008-11-11T01:13:00.015-05:00

today i got a twitter reply about a picture of a guy on perezhilton that looked like me...or i looked like him. whatever. i thinks it's funny when people say i look like a celebrity because sometimes i don't agree and sometimes i totally do. i have been told i look like a couple people. here are some of the ones i've been told i look like.

"you look like that one guy from 'My Best Friend's Wedding'"
Dermot Mulroney

Andrew St. John
this one is kinda creepy. i even posted this pic on my myspace and people commented on it saying how good i looked. my own cousin even posted a comment on it! he was on some soap opera and then on this show in the CW called "Life is Wild"

Brandon Flowers
this is the guy that was on perezhilton and someone twittered that i looked like him. yeah.....i can see it

i was totally curious about other celebrity look-a-likes and they have sites that you can upload a pic and then they will do a face scan and then give you celebrities that they think look like you. it was fun! everyone should do it. one of the sites is myheritage and this is what they came up with for me. i don't really agree with them. but whatever. i don't even know who half these people are!
another site was picitup and they have a celebrity match up thing. here is who they said i look like.

Timothy Olyphant, Shane West, Oliver Martinez, and Jason Bateman

WTF?!

go and see who you look like!

a not-so-ordinary day in the life of andy

2008-11-08T02:39:00.014-05:00

-TUESDAY NOV. 4TH, 2008-

12:05 AM - in bed reading Looking For Alaska

12:24 AM - time for me and the dog to go to bed

7:50 AM - waking up

7:52 AM - shower/brush teeth/get dressed

8:22 AM - off to vote!

i had to use a lame paper ballot. all the computer ones were taken

8:42 AM - done voting. this is the first presidential election i get to vote in :)

9:04 AM - at walmart looking for the Twilight soundtrack. they don't have it.

9:12 AM - i map out directions to the nearest Target

9:28 AM - target has it!!

9:31 AM - i buy breakfast along with the soundtrack

9:45 AM - in my hurry to vote i forgot to put on deodorant! so i stop by CVS

10:00 AM - i'm early for work so i sit in the car and read.

2:22 PM - done with work so i eat lunch.

2:44 PM - on my way home from work i have to get gas. so glad it's gettin cheaper!

2:51 PM - driving home

3:02 PM - i love my apartment

3:05 PM - checked the mail. look at what i got. how cool is that?!

3:36 PM - make my internet rounds. two of my most important stops :)

4:44 PM - leave for a friends house. election night partay!!

5:00 PM - driving on the interstate. friends kinda far, but not too far.

6:17 PM - we hit up the grocery store to buy "supplies"

6:48 PM - eat dinner

6:58 PM - start watching election coverage

7:52 PM - start drinking

10:50 PM - election beer pong!

10:59 PM - OBAMA!

11:39 PM - more election beer pong

12:06 AM - too much beer pong

12:20 AM - we walk to a club

1:01 AM - we celebrate Obama's victory! :)

2:29 AM - we get a ride home

2:46 AM - we make popcorn

2:47 AM - maybe a little bit too much.....

3:03 AM - we watch recaps of the nights events

3:10 AM - time for bed!

Halloween Part 2

2008-11-07T02:32:00.007-05:00

[a little delayed]

SO! halloween was a blast! after work i came home, showered, and amy showed up a couple mintues later. we got ready and took off for the citAY! i was harry potter and she was daphne from scooby doo [not hermione, as she would later be called numerous times].

we got to the city and walked to where the "parade" was. it pretty much was just a thing where if you thought your costume was cute you could sign up and walk down the street and people would look at you. it was still fun but after 5 minutes of watching 100 jokers walk down the street we needed a drink. as the night went on i found it more and more appropriate to use my wand to do some magic! like when my drink was empty i would wave my wand around the top of my cup and say "I NEED MORE DRINK! POOF!!"

i had soo much fun and we saw some ridiculous costumes. the costume of the year seemed to be the joker from the new batman movie. but can you blame em? one of my favorites was someone dressed up as celie from the color purple! it was a guy and he was carrying around corn stalks and would peek through them. i loved it b/c i love that show so much! but the best part was just hanging out with amy, brett, and matt. loves it! best halloween ever. and yes i know that includes every halloween i've ever experienced.

Halloween Part I

2008-10-31T17:26:00.005-04:00

at work no one really wore a costume b/c they weren't "work appropriate". so we ran over to walmart, bought some cheap masks, stole the cooks aprons, wore them as capes, put letters on them for our names, and then had competitions to test our super human strength. [who can role silverwear the fastest and pick up ice buckets]. i clearly was the winner and claire was my sidekick. duh!

Paper Towns

2008-10-30T14:57:00.008-04:00

[if you haven't read the book and don't want any spoilers then don't read this]

i finished paper towns last night. around 3am. wow. it was amazing. people said when they read it that they were laughing out loud one page and crying the next. totally true. and let me start off by saying that i bought the sad margo cover. and i'm totally glad i did!all of the characters were so fun and the conversations they had cracked me up. ben was so funny! when they have their accident on the trip and he jumps out of the car screaming "it's gonna blow" and takes off. just picturing that in my head made me laugh. his character was fantastic

i love how the book took you all over the place! right from the beginning when margo takes q on her little adventure. and in q's search for her. you travel to all these places and there is so much you don't know. i was totally trying to solve things in my head as i read. at one point i even pm'ed someone who had finished the book to see if i was right about a prediction...and i totally was!

the whole road trip was so good. i cracked up so many times. "metaphysical i spy" was hilarious. after the cow when radar kept saying stuff like "remember the time....." was so funny because i do that all the time. something crazy or funny will happen and then two minutes later i'm like "remember that time when?!"

it was kinda crazy because some parts totally hit home. with margo. and her leaving and running. there was one page where i had to put the book down because i was crying and couldn't even see the freakin words on the pages! if this book had been written when i was graduating high school and running away to be on my own i don't think i could have gone a whole chapter without having to stop and regain composure. being a little dramatic? eh.

one of my favorite [happier] moments in the book was the first BP stop on the trip. how funny was that?! like i totally saw that in my head like it was a scene from a movie. [which it hopefully will be soon!!] like Q running in slow motion to the door and lacey and ben opening the door and running in after him, ben's graduation gown twirling behind him. ha! loved it! so epic

i was going to write this big review on the book and tell you all what i thought of it but just to sum it up: it's fucking the best and you need to read it!

k?

this pretty much sums up how i view life. all the shit we go through and how it makes us view each other:

"Maybe it's more like you said before, all of us being cracked open. Like, each of starts out as a watertight vessel. And these things happen - these people leave us, or don't love us, or don't get us, or we don't get them, and we lose and fail and hurt one another. And the vessel starts to crack open in places. And I mean, yeah, once the vessel cracks open, the end becomes inevitable. [.....] But there is all this time between when the cracks start to open up and when we finally fall apart. And it's only in that time that we can see one another, because we see out of ourselves through our cracks and into others through theirs. When did we see each other face-to-face? Not until you saw into my cracks and I saw into yours. Before that, we were just looking at ideas of each other, like looking at your window shade but never seeing inside. But once the vessel cracks, the light can get in. The light can get out"
-Paper Towns

blast from the past

2008-10-04T01:49:00.006-04:00

today i was going through all of my myspace pics and deleting them. not all, just a large majority. there are pics of me in the car with a certain boy and it made me smile. really big. kinda caught me off guard. i really miss that person. [ya'll are gonna go stalk myspace and try to guess who it is. i know it]

i went to facebook [hate the new layout by the way] and stalked. i posted a lil wall comment and a couple mins later got a text.

and now we are texting as i speak.

i don't know why i just blogged about this. but i wanted to blog. and it seemed interesting enough.

these "blasts from the past" are going to start happening more now that i'm moving. it'll be interesting. also since i got MSN messenger again. i logged into it for the first time in a year. i forgot how many friends i had on that thing! lots and lots. most of them i would not remember, and one person even started a conversation but i didn't reply because i didn't remember who they were [sorry whoever you are].

i was interested so i logged into yahoo messenger, another one i have not been on in about a year. i only had one friend.

Sushi and Cascada

2008-09-14T03:55:00.006-04:00

TONIGHT we went to Sushi Station which was totally amazing! the sushi goes around on a conveyor belt type thing [<-] and you grab what you want. the food is on different colored plates and each plate is a different price so you just stack your plates up and then add it all up when you're done! i loved it. i think they should make more restaurants like that. pizza on a conveyor belt..burgers..tacos..you know! some of the stuff they had was pretty intense! like jellyfish salad. [->] i enjoy trying new things so i had it and it was pretty good. it tasted like i think a jellyfish would. well not really. the texture was like i thought a jellyfish would be like. yeah. i thought it would be super salty but it wasn't. they had a lot of other things i wanted to try. so next time :)

AFTER the Sushi Station we went to a Cascada concert at The Alumni Club. of course she was late. i think that is like a requirement of concerts. do they ever start on time? her show was short but good! she sang all of "the hits" like Miracle, What Hurts The Most, Everytime We Touch, and some others. she is a pretty fierce performer. she dances around and belts it out and put on a good show. i had a lot of fun. wish it would have been at the gay club though. straight clubs are ridic. i'll explain in a later blog.

the zoo

2008-09-10T23:32:00.008-04:00

today dj and i went to the brookfield zoo. i had never been and it was a lot of fun. there weren't that many people there so it was nice to not have to wait in line or have people all in your way. the weather was really nice as well. overall- a good day :) i freaking love zoo's and if i could go on tour and just go to zoo's then that would be fine with me! but there was some pretty funny stuff that happened today when we were there.

ok so the polar bears were a mom and a son that was a year and a half old. when we walked up to the exhibit the mom bear was standing up on a rock peeing into the water but right under her was her son. just standing there. getting peed on! the guy standing next to us worked at the zoo and said that it happens a lot. gross! you can't really see it in the picture. but that is what's going on

in the primate house they had more than just primates in the exhibits. for instance, in one of the HUGE rooms for the monkeys they had water at the bottom with a baby hippo in it and they also had a large aardvark that ran around. anyways, there were these branches that went across the water where the hippo was swimming. and when the hippo would swim under the branches two of the monkeys would run onto the branches and slap the hippo's back. the hippo would make noise and squirt up water and the monkeys would make noise and run away. it was like a game and it was SO funny/cute to watch.

they had these "wax-o-rama" machines around the park and i am totally obsessed with them. you put in money and two halves of a mold push together and then they squirt hot wax into the mold and then it cools really fast and then the molds pull apart and you have a lil wax animal!! seriously. coolest thing. when you left the different habitats they would have a machine where you could make the animal you just saw. so you leave the primate house and you can make a gorilla, or watch the dolphins then make a lil wax dolphin! i made 4 and totally wanted to make more. but i was tired of carrying them :) whatever happened to two quarters and a penny making a lil squished penny with something on it. i think lil wax animals are way better. just take up more room. ugh

RedBull Flugtag Chicago

2008-09-07T02:03:00.013-04:00

Today was the RedBull Flugtag in Chicago and Amy and I went to check it out. It was a lot of fun. There were about 70,000 people there [that's what the commentators kept saying] and North Ave Beach was packed!

After seeing the crafts that these teams made Amy decided that she needs to design one. Some of these teams HAD to have known that their craft wasn't going to go anywhere. Most of the crafts were pushed off the ramp and then just went straight down into the water. Lame. But there was one craft that is now in second place for the record for furthest distance ever!

In flugtag the teams have to introduce their craft and then put on a little show before they launch their craft. All of the crafts/teams have to have a theme and some of them were pretty cool. One of my favorites was the mariokart craft. The team was dressed up to look like the nintendo characters and their craft was a cart from the game. They didn't go far. Another team did duckhunt from the original nintendo and theirs was pretty good as well. There was a corn on the cob craft, a hotdog, a crab bucket [2nd furthest ever!], a flying monkey from the wizard of oz, a pirate ship, a house, a flying saucer, a stir fry bowl, and a couple others. There were 29 crafts but it actually went by really fast!

Flugtag was pretty cool and all but the reason i wanted to go was to meet Lenay [youtube.com/lenayiskindofcool] She is a youtuber and works for RedBull. She is the RedBull First Person and gets to do some crazy stuff. Drive race cars, parachute, fly in stunt planes, and all this other stuff. This summer she was in the RedBull tour bus and drove from flugtag to flugtag vlogging and blogging about them. She was in flugtag a couple years ago and that is how i actually found out about her and started watching her, because of the videos she made for her flugtag team "Team Karl Sucks". She was walking around flugtag today with her camera guy and when she walked by i ran up to her like a little fan girl and asked for a picture. My life is now complete :)

I'm Here

2008-08-30T05:20:00.002-04:00

i almost posted this video with no explanation as to why because the song is so good and that's reason enough for me to post it. but whatever. here's an explantion: Amy popped my theater cherry about a year ago when she took me to see The Color Purple. it was amazing!!!! we cried, we laughed, we cried some more. so good. but there was one song at the end that had me all a mess! Jeannette Bayardelle plays the character Celie in Chicago for The Color Purple and she is so much better than Fantasia but i couldn't find a good video of her singing this song. so here is the one of Fantasia. it's so powerful and i love this song so much. listen to the words. evertime i hear this song i get goosebumps and teary eyed.

Shelter

2008-08-05T20:27:00.003-04:00

everyone needs to see this movie. it's SO good. i've watched it like 5 times the past couple days.

Untitled II

2008-08-04T02:53:00.003-04:00

there are no second tries
after true love dies
we are only left blind
trying to find
a certain place
where maybe we can face
our forgotten voice
and make a choice
to put our hearts out again
or leave them where they've been

-andy

The Hours

2008-08-01T15:08:00.002-04:00

michael cunningham is one of the most amazing authors i have ever read and everyone needs to read his books. when i read his books i always have a pen ready b/c i mark and circle parts that stick out to me. this one from The Hours was circled twice. who can't relate?

"She brushes her teeth, brushes her hair, and starts downstairs. She pauses several treads from the bottom, listening, waiting; she is again possessed (it seems to be getting worse) by a dream-like feeling, as if she is standing in the wings, about to go onstage and perform in a play for which she is not appropriately dressed, and for which she has not adequately rehearsed. What, she wonders, is wrong with her. This is her husband in the kitchen; this is her little boy. All the man and boy require of her is her presense and, of course, her love. She conquers the desire to go quietly back upstairs to her bed and book. She conquers her irritation at the sound of her husband's voice, saying something to Richie about napkins. She descends the last three stairs, crosses the narrow foyer, enters the kitchen."

jay brannan

2008-07-31T19:38:00.005-04:00

so i went to jay's concert in chicago this past monday. it seriously was freaking amazing. what i loved most about it was the emotion when he sings. like he for real gave me goosebumps. but at the same time i laughed a lot. in between songs, when he was talking, he was soo funny. but i'm not gonna bore you with a long ass blog about it. here's a lil video from the show!! BAH!

and! he left a comment! ha. which made my day :) the comment about the hat is..well.. i gave him a hat i made :)

and after the show he waited in the lobby to say hi to everyone. he was super nice! can't wait for him to come to chicago again!! [my shirt is from one of his songs]

click on the pic to check out more about jay brannan!

regrets

2008-07-18T03:13:00.003-04:00

i PROMISE i will get back to actual blogs soon....but this needs to be posted. one b/c she is amazing! and two b/c her lyrics are amazing. and three b/c the song is amazing! so go sub to her!

thanks tory for getting me hooked to another youtube artist!

group participation

2008-07-17T03:27:00.001-04:00

what does this make you think of/how does it make you feel? look at the pic and explain.

scissor

2008-07-11T02:50:00.004-04:00

me and michael were "scissoring" on stickam. it was hot. be jealous

blogger > wordpress

2008-07-06T15:41:00.003-04:00

so for the past couple weeks i have been keeping up with a blog over at wordpress.com but that site is so limited in what you can do and sometimes it's a pain to post vids and stuff. so i am giving into blogger. hopefully it will make my blogging life a lil bit easier.